A Portrait of Self-Portrait combining line and tone

I had great fun completing this final drawing for Assignment Four. Initially I felt quite overwhelmed as there was so many techniques and outcomes that I could follow to produce this drawing, so with that in mind, I started to investigate how other contemporary artists had created their self-portraits. When observing and analysing what other artists had tried and achieved, I found that I quite liked the outcome of a natural or white coloured support, with semi-loose line and a splash of colour here and there. I think it is really helpful to consider how other artists have pulled together their composition as a whole as it gives me ideas on what I could experiment with, in addition to my own ideas and artistic voice. I have noticed that after investigating various methods and techniques in Part Four, I was able to come to a conclusion of what my three figure drawings would begin to look like. I found that I was able to be more discerning and have a bit of confidence in making the decisions which would develop my ideas to take the drawings through conception to completion. A little self-analysis in my sketchbook brought up questions that helped and encouraged me to identify the starting point of this drawing. The work that I produce always seems to evoke emotion from me and I like being able to convey this through my work. Although I do see the emotion as something that is constantly evolving. The more research I do into artists past and present, the more I can relate to some of the stories and how they incorporated their lives and feelings into their work. The contemporary self-portraits that I saw, many used mixed media approaches, photography with the subject dressed in a particular way or even painted with the subject disfigured to represent psychological issues. There is such a huge variety of personal approaches in contemporary self-portrait that there doesn’t seem to be any hard and fast rules. I discovered this in one of my previous research points in part four; it seems that artists can now not be held to a long line of tradition and produce self-portraits in the ‘correct’ style. Artists in the modern day look like they can just be free and self indulgent in their expression to produce a portrait that conveys any message they should choose.
And so I felt inspired to just draw myself in my self-portrait as free and care-free as I felt. I wanted a burst of colour to represent my happiness and passion for playing music with my cello and I also knew that I would need to experiment with how I was to do this with a fair amount of individual research.
From previous studies I knew that I really enjoyed working in Indian ink but also with charcoal. My investigations started here with these two materials and I had great fun putting together some research into working with these materials for my self-portrait. Through this research I found that a smooth support would best support my free-flowing and fast, expressive lines. I decided that a line with a little tone to just give a hint of a three-dimensional form would really take my drawing to the expressive and dynamic piece I wanted it. A far cry away from the sympathetically and delicately rendered self-portrait by Rembrandt, I know, but if a self-portrait is purely an expression of the artist, whether it be a superficial message or one of deep emotional and psychological representation, then I feel that the concept of my self-portrait should take into consideration my natural voice and the way in which I choose to express it.
After completing my investigative work and the few hours spent drawing the construction lines of my facial features and the rest of the composition, I felt that I was ready to start applying the first few marks to my drawing in charcoal. I felt excited to explore where this drawing would take me as I ventured out with more expressive marks here and there, including the areas where I tightened up where I lacked confidence in my ability, and then learned to set myself freer again. Working on such a big scale (A2) made me realise how the techniques practised in my sketchbook begin to change when applied on a bigger scale. The muscle memory changes, as do the proportions. Part Four has taught me to really consider this factor when planning working up from my sketchbook to a larger support.
I have a slight sense of disappointment when I look at the final drawing in that, again, there are similarities in it when comparing it to myself, but ultimately there is little more than a resemblance. It seems that I tightened up a lot here and messed about with the charcoal on the mouth area to produce the correct tonal variation, that in the end, I could not longer work out the construction lines underneath or pick up the charcoal with the knead-able eraser. I then found myself in a bit of a muddle, having nearly finished the drawing, I was getting frustrated, smudging the charcoal and pastel elsewhere on the drawing. I decided to leave some of these smudged areas of charcoal in because when I look back at this drawing, I will understand and recall the effort I put in to produce, but hopefully, in a few years time, I can look back and see how far I have come to develop my practice and what I had learnt along the way. I also think leaving in a few areas of smudged material shows some of my working movements and I felt quite happy to see my little clues that I had left of the piecing together of the portrait. It gave me a sense of life and connectivity with the drawing and reminded me of how far humans have come in terms of evolution to be able to pick up a mark-making material and describe three-dimensional forms. Ultimately, I ended up completing the mouth with light charcoal and pencil of which I struggle to feel happy about. However, every mistake or difficult experience is a lesson learned and I will understand more about the construction of the human figure, my chosen materials and their properties after this assignment and its preparatory studies.
- Demonstration of technical and visual skills – I believe I am fairly accurate with the proportions and angles of the figure in this drawing. I also feel that parts of the body and of the face represent mine quite well in terms of likeness. There is still some technical and observation work to accurately describe what I see before me however. I think that the choice of using charcoal gave me the right balance of creating an abstract, thick and expressive line, whilst also allowing me to retain the fluidity and spontaneity that will charcoal can bring. I used a small thin piece of charcoal so I could apply pressure where needed without the fear of it snapping, and by sketching in the outlines in pencil first, I was able to retrace the construction lines in a quick and smooth action. Some areas I forgot myself and concentrated on details far too much for the outcome I wanted to achieve. Such as the face and hands. Areas like the cello and the clothes I found less intimidating. I chose to compose this drawing from my head to my pelvis as I knew that the cello have context to my environment and the flow of the drawing seemed to end prematurely if I cropped the composition higher towards my chest. As did many historic self-portrait, many captured the artist at their work, such as Van Gogh and Rembrandt painting. I wanted to show myself playing music and having fun doing so, therefore I needed a longer image to describe the drawing in a more creative and imaginative way. The pink hue behind me was an idea that came from the top that I was wearing in the self-portrait reference photo that I took. You can see in my preparatory studies that I try to fill in my cardigan in with the pink tone, but I felt like this seemed a little out of place and drew attention to my torso, which seemed a little out of place, considering the context of the piece was playing music. I decided to take inspiration yet again from Van Gogh, and apply the colour behind me to help with the overall feel of the drawing. The pink colour in mine is uplifting, vibrant and energetic. This described my personality but also the sound of the music that emits from the cello. This is a complete contrast to how Vincent used his sombre blues in his self-portrait background which really add to the darkness and depressive feel to his painting.
- Quality of outcome – I think the idea for this self-portrait is quite unique in that normally it is an artist who is painting or drawing themselves at a canvas rather than a different discipline. I wouldn’t say I appear to be hiding behind the cello in my drawing, rather displaying that I am a part of it. I did decide to keep negative space around myself because the dynamic angles and lines in the drawing are more than enough to keep the eyes busy. The splash of colour in the background helps for me to express my feelings through tone alone rather than taking anything away from the semi-loose use of line. I believe that viewers of my self-portrait will understand the happiness and emotion that is resonating from me and that I wanted to convey through this drawing. I think they would receive this through the expression on my face, the use of a bright, uplifting colour but also the playful and expressive line which looks weighted and dark in some areas but comes out in others with light and energetic marks here and there.
- Demonstration of creativity – the ideas for this drawing were quite strong after previous studies had developed ideas in my head. Without the preliminary research, I think my ideas might have been a bit more basic and lacked the understanding of the self-portrait, its tradition and the basic structure that pulls it all together. My imagination saw a drawing which was free-flowing, like music, and a figure that sat, looking out to something or someone that made her smile. This figure was obviously enjoying herself and that is the exact feeling I wanted to see and feel when I looked at my self-portrait. Unlike other artists who have captured darker moments and feelings of depression and torment, I saw a drawing which invited the viewer in to see a private moment with a musician and question what it was that was giving her such enjoyment. Could it be the cello that would be the obvious clue, or is it more to do with the situation that has capture this figure’s attention to the left of her? I didn’t really feel that the negative space needed to be filled with the presence of the chair in which the figure sits, nor the audience that may have been watching the performance. It felt right to leave the drawing a bit mysterious and employ some contemporary techniques to give energy and drama to the figure’s environment. I think my voice comes out well here in the use of expressive line. I think I felt more restricted with my use of tone, but I felt like I understood the line more, I could see where and how it would work its way on the paper. Although, the moment I got to a part that I lacked confidence in, say the facial features, I tightened up a little and lost some identity. I think this will get better with time and the more I experiment with these techniques with the human face using charcoal as my medium.
- Context reflection – As discussed previously, research, whether in written, audio, visual, video format etc., gives me a huge amount of food for thought. I digest what I have seen and always think, How could I make that work in my studies? Or what techniques are in this work that I could investigate and adopt to use in mine? For part four, I particularly liked looking into the history of figure drawing and how historic artists used these tools from their figure drawing classes in further pieces of work in which the figures needed prior knowledge of the construction and/or anatomy of the human figure to be deemed an accurate representation. I also wonder, if it hadn’t been for the acceptance of collective figure drawing classes, what would contemporary presentations of human figures look like now? Would they all be abstract, representational pieces rather than detailed, hyper-realistic drawings which some contemporary artists favour today? I have a lot more understanding of the human anatomy now, and it seems that when I look at a drawing of the figure now, I can ‘see’ the skeletal and muscular structure underneath, almost like layers building up the form. Although it will take time to develop the skill and technique in learning how to realistically and accurately describe the figures, I feel like investigative practical and theoretical research helps to give context to why study of the human figure is important. Not just in being able to recreate it in other drawings, but the transferable skills it offers me across the multi-disciplines and areas of study in art.
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